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Thursday, August 27, 2009

In case your wondering…

Added to the post below…

 

 

If any of you read my other blog post you will see I am  not the type of person to write something I don’t believe in… so take the below post and the post before this for what its worth… I am not a person who blogs about religious things but these post are not “religion” they are my heart… read and enjoy…or  read and hate… either way… know that this is me…this is my heart…this is my life… :)

Harder than the First time… This song means so much to me because for YEARS I only felt I knew the God or Jesus my father told me about and no matter what I felt it was not my own thoughts, it was, something I was told and believed in. Just like how you believe the color red is red because someone told you enough times as a child… Well now I have stepped away from that and found out who Jesus is ON MY OWN without relying on what others have said or taught me, but on MY OWN!!! Its an AMAZING feeling, to know GOD is MY God and not only the God my Dad told me about but the God I found on my own as well!!! :)

How am I doing??

A few people have asked how I am these days… well these next 2 songs about sum it up in words I couldn’t…. they are in order of how I have been doing.. of course the last is … well my last 6 months or so!!! Not that I wont ever return to the “person”in the first song but I think its the realization of the second and first combined that make the difference. It may mean NOTHING to you but it means the WORLD to me :)

 

Barlow Girl

On My Own lyrics

I can't believe that I"m here in this place again
How did I manage to mess up one more time?
This pattern seems to be the story of my life
Should have learned this lesson by the thousandth time
'Cause I promise myself I wouldn't fall
But here I've fallen
I guess I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You
Oh God You have to save me
You're my last and only hope
All my right answers fail me
I can't seem to make it on my own
I always thought that I would be strong enough
What made all of them fall couldn't take me down
Yeah, did I think that I was above it all
I have learned that pride comes before the fall
I can't promise that I won't fall
'Cause here I've fallen
I know I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You

 

 

 

Harder Than The First Time lyrics
I walked with you
Just like we've done for so long
You seem so near
But even that's become so common It's not just You, just been together so long
That I thought I knew everything about You
But today I saw
Did You open up my eyes?
'Cause I feel like I've just seen You for the first time
I didn't see You
But God I want to
You've come alive
And I think I've fallen harder than the first time
Was I so blind?
How did I not see You?
Yet in that time You never left my side
So far all my life I will live to know You
So here I am, I'll take Your hand
I see Your face
I feel You close
The love You've always shown me
Won't miss it now can't waste a day
Jesus I'm Yours completely

Thursday, August 20, 2009

People who use….

First let me say, if I wrote to much for you to read, please, at least scroll to the bottom and check out the last paragraph!!)

So, for years I have allowed myself to become.. well.. a doormat to some. Friends, family, strangers…. I have always been there to help anyone at anytime. Obviously that’s why I became a police officer, I do enjoy helping others. But choosing to help someone is a lot different than being expected to and used for your kindness. I guess I have just reached a point in my life ,that in my relationships (relationships = friends, family,work..) I am going to be giving what I get. This does not mean I wont go above and beyond on a task I am given it just means emotionally. I know this sounds mean but it really is not. If you have a friend who is always calling for favors but never talks to you any other time would you still put effort into this kind of relationship? Now what if its family? Does it really make a difference? Now I am not saying my family is calling me or using me I am just saying in general :)

You can only open your heart to some people and care for them so much only to be “forgotten” whenever things are going well in their life or when they just don’t need anything. ( I don’t know how God does this daily, but I am grateful he not only can but does!!) I think I try hard to keep in contact with those I am close to. I try to regularly call or at least send an email. I may not get to talk to some of my family or friends due to schedules being different, but I do put the effort in, and most do the same for me.

That's really all that matters I think. Its the effort. For some one to show that the relationship is not one-sided. I can have friends I don’t talk to for MONTHS but we still try to talk and just miss calls, or whatever, but when we do talk its MEANINGFUL and not just take take take.

This new view on life is not a “changed Lindsy” I am still the same happy bubbly person I have been, and will always be. :) I am just now, at 30, learning to set boundaries, for myself and others towards me. I can’t always be the one to help you in your time of , well what some call, need. I am not going to feel guilty anymore if I can’t help everyone. I have learned that for years I have always thought NO was a selfish word and now I know it is not. I have also come to see that constantly saying yes and things of that sort can be damaging to the person you think you are helping. In life we do have to reap what we sow and many of us become enablers to protect those close to us. When in fact, we are not helping them at all but allowing them to continue in their path with little to no consequences for what they do. Then those of us who are “enablers” now have taken on the persons problems while they walk away scot free and content until their next issue.

Now let me explain that I am not trying to be all high and mighty, I am not in any way saying I have NEVER acted like a “user” before. I have been there done that myself in my life. (most teens are this way by nature) But there is a point in our lives we have to grow up and take responsibility for ourselves. Also if there is anyone I know who reads this, I don’t who does or doesn’t, that feels like this is a stab towards them… well it is NOT. This is not in any way towards anyone or any situation in particular. Its a new general path I am taking. But also at the same point, if this blog does bother someone, maybe… just maybe… you should check your intentions, I’m not saying if it bothers only people I know but if ANYONE reads this and feels “moved” then maybe its time for you to stop being the user or stop being used :)

If you want to know more about this or are interested in what I am saying please please check out the book called Boundaries!!!Click on HERE to see a excerpt of it and if you do PLEASE scroll through to page 27.. READ IT!!! Read 27-28 its one SHORT story and will explain things in a way I can’t!! This book is AMAZING And if anyone has boundaries issues like I do its a must have. Even if you think you don’t have issues.. just wait till you read page 27-28 and you will see… most of us do have these issues!!

Really….. I mean really????

Elijah and I had an amazing weekend last week, went to all these different places and so forth…

Well during our trip we ended up going to the Marines base at Cherry Point, NC. While we were there we stopped at the local exchange (like a department store), where everything is cheaper and no tax.

Anyways, while shopping around, I was just SO excited to find some USMC shirts, I wondered into the men’s clothing looking for Elijah and saw these flip flops!!!

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I thought it was a mistake, but it wasn’t, they had more than one pair like this… are they seriously selling mixed matched, hot pink and baby blue flip flops for guys?? Really?? Is it just me or is it even more hilarious that that they are selling these on a Marine base?? HAHAHA

Very awkward….

I saw this on someone's MySpace comments… I get the meaning behind it, I think, I hope they did not mean to make it insestual  but who knows anymore, it sure sounds weird… LOL  Just thought I would share it with my blogging world :)

(comment below)

 

I just kissed you.
Click here to kiss me back!

no matter how many boyfriends you have, yo brotha is still the best

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Stupid People..

So I am really thinking we are becoming more and more like the movie Idiocracy everyday!!!

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Can someone PLEASE explain to me WHY a truck needs a spoiler on its roof?? Does this person really think they are going to be going SO darn fast that they need a arrow dynamic wing to stabilize their vehicle?? REALLY?? HAHHA And on TOP of its camper top?? What the heck is going on here?? I am still trying to understand the fad of BIG wheels on regular cars and now we have THIS to understand too!?!?!?!

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Sunday, August 2, 2009

Really Wal-Mart???

So, I was grocery shopping at Wal-Mart yesterday and noticed something silly. Have you seen the SAVE even more sticker/flappers over the regular priced items?? Well be sure to lift those up and see WHAT the price was BEFORE!!! I have noticed this before but never took pictures till now!! LOL Not always, but some of them are just advertising the REGULAR price but make you think its a deal or they have RAISED the price but you see a SALE tag and pay no attention. Below are pictures of Shelton Vineyards wine “on sale” (If you are reading this from FB there are no pictures, go to http://lindsy1979.blogspot.com/ to see what I mean)

 

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Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Shooting my Kimber Ultra CDP II

So thanks to David (Elijah’s Dad) I finally have ammo to shoot my new gun!!! (click on hyperlink for more info on it)  It was AWESOME!!! I am still waiting on my CCW to get processed in FL, they are running way behind right now.  Well it take about 200 – 500 rounds to break in a gun and I only put 50 down range. With ammo prices right now, I am sure you see why I am conserving a bit. Also I went by myself so I wanted to save some for Elijah to shoot this weekend :) So anyways, after 50 rounds it only jammed 2X’s on the last round in the mag, this is good considering it has not been shot. I was a bit disappointed with my  aiming  though. I was shooting a bit low and left. Now this could be because user error (trigger control)  or just being a new gun and breaking it in. I have also never shot a 3 inch barrel 45 so I am sure that had a lot to do with it. Knowing how I shoot and the fact I was only shooting from the 15 yard line I was rather frustrated… from that distance I should of been dead center…LOL  Oh well… with more practice on the new gun I will be able to get it right. I will attach some photos so you all can see what I am talking about :)

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Friday, June 26, 2009

Michael Dead and I don’t care!!

OK... Here is my opinion .... I don't care Michael Jackson is dead... He WAS a child molester and his money got him out of it. Ok, so he was acquitted... so was OJ people!! Sure his music was legend but does that excuse it? People die EVERYDAY on this planet, good people but we are not all sad and upset over them... Don't believe he was a molester?? Just look at some of the items in his house (taken from the auction that was supposed to take place)

Here's a sample of some of the various works of art on the 2,952 item list: "boy with accordion," "boy sitting on bricks," "boy w/ baton and hat w/ feathers," "two boys on swing bar," "two boys with ladder," "boys sleeping on bench," " boys milking goat," "boy on a toy car with girl," "boy pulling, 2 boys on a bike," "boy lifting girl," "2 boys sitting on a sunflower," "little boy with turquoise overalls on a stand," "bronze boy and girl hugging," "bronze boy carrying a fruit basket," "boys catching fish." And it goes on and on and on and on ....

Jacko also has an item described as "child's upper body mannequin." In fact, he has two of those

 

 

So no I don’t care that a rich molester who can buy his way out of charges is gone. I feel bad for all the people that were around him and did not get him the help he needed. Most child molesters were abused themselves so that’s what I feel bad about.

 

Military people are dying almost everyday in war… Where is their world wide news? Not a tiny blurb at the bottom of the screen.. Every one on FB talking about how sad it is. I just don’t get it people.  Did you know him? I think he chose his path in life … like we all do and well that is that. Did he deserve to die?? No, I’m not saying that but does a child molester deserve to be placed on a pedestal .. NO WAY!!!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Sex every where you turn!!

Why is it that sex sells? Why is it  you can not buy anything or watch anything with out some sexual image or innuendo attached? Its so frustrating to not be able to go anywhere in life and not see it. You can’t even watch TV these days without them making sure they have shown you some sort of “Skin” in each episode. Why is it that our society thinks this is the way to go? Maybe I’m old fashioned… I don’t know but I know I hate it. Even Elijah’s Mixed Martial Arts magazines have women posed skanky in near nothing. One magazine in particular has 5 women a month!! (If I’m bored I will tape the pictures together as a joke… LOL)

And….Don’t get me started on the movies out there….. Uhhhhggg what happened to the good old days where it showed the couple go into a room kiss and then all went Dark… next scene was waking up in bed together… We all knew what happened… Do I really need to see every detail of skin on skin and sweat??

So… why is this? Are there really people out there that think that all the porn and smut floating around isn’t enough so they want to interject it into everyday living? And we wonder why we have young teenagers posting provocative pictures of themselves on the internet for all to see. Not even the young kids even adult women do this for attention from all the guys, its such a display of low self-esteem. I almost feel bad for these people.

Now you might say that I am only jealous because I don’t “have the body” they do but that’s not it at all. There are plenty of beautiful women who respect themselves enough not to post those kind of pictures. I don’t care if I was the “hottest” girl in the world I still wouldn’t. Besides that my husband LOVES me just the way I am so I wouldn’t need to esteem booster either way :)

 

ok so I started talking about sex in movies and got into a little bit more… enjoy :)

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Talking 2 Much

So, here we are cyber space. Another day of talking to no one but feeling better that I am talking at all. :) Most women use 20000 words a day (men at 7000) and I think I use 40000 or more. So imagine this, I have the urge to speak 40000 words a day and yet I am home all day doing class work and cleaning the house with no one around. can you imagine how Elijah feels when he walks in the door? I bombard him with conversation!!! Poor guy!!! My family will tell you that I wake up talking. Why is that I wonder.. hmmm Well the worse part for me, being that I am such a talker, is living in a state with only a couple friends. Sitting home all day, doing school work, but no one to talk to while Elijah is at work. I know I could pick up the phone to call someone but then I will get nothing done around the house.. hehehe I miss having friends to call up and go sit at Starbucks for a couple hours just talking. Don't get me wrong, Elijah and I talk but that's not always the same as a good friend and a coffee :) Well, Not much else to say on this matter right now (am I really done ??.. hehehe )

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

My new toy :)

Kimber 1911 Ultra CDP II

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12:30 AM

If I could only get some sleep!!! Elijah is snoring away and I am now wide awake!! I can not wait till he can get the doctor about this!!! Well… going to try and fall asleep again, the couch is beginning to get very comfortable and that’s BAD!!! I don’t want the couch to EVER get comfortable but it is starting too. We need to get this snoring issue under control soon.. LOL :)

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Seasonal Friends

Sometimes in life we have friends we think will be there forever!!! We can’t imagine life without them. But as you grow up and things change that friend is slowly pushed out of your life. Not because of a fight but , well… the season has changed. Maybe that person was in your life to help you through a hard time or you were that for them. Then one day as things move on you realize that you are not talking to certain friends as much and you realize you are not as devastated as you once thought you would be...This happens as we grow up and move on, whether its out of a state or just into a new life. This “moving on” is not necessarily a bad thing, its just what happens as we all grow up. There are of course those friends that you stay friends with your whole life no matter what happens and I am not talking of them… Its the Seasonal ones that come and go in our lives. Who knows how long they stay, could be months or years, they just are and we accept that. So, is it ok knowing all of this, that when you have one of these friends and time is moving on, not to call them? Do you have to let them know what is going on or do you just slowly fade into the past? Telling someone may make them feel your mad or they wont get it. Not telling them will most defiantly make them feel you are mad or something is wrong. Nothing is wrong. Its just a new season and time for a change.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Blockbuster porn!?!?!

So Elijah and I were walking around blockbuster the other day looking for some great weekend movies to watch when Elijah pointed out a movie called Pirates II:Stagnetties Revenge. This movie was an obvious porn style movie!!! Ok so it was on the top shelf of the new releases and rated R but does that make it ok?? NO WAY!!! The back cover even shows it a porn. Ok so its probably not a full porn but maybe equivalent to Cinemax night movies or SKINIMAX as most call it. Either way I was appalled it was even on the shelf for everyone to see and rent. Shame on you Blockbuster!!!

Thursday, May 7, 2009

WHY Don't People understand RESPECT!!!!!!!!!!!

Why can't women out there understand respect in a marriage? OMG I am at my wits end with some of these people!! Why, if you are married yourself would you contact and OLD boyfriend and send him pictures of you and him kissing... Not only are you married now but he is TOO!!! OH MY!!! Does no one this day in age understand what respect is and why that's a big no no?? Am I wrong for thinking that? I don't mind the getting in touch, I don't mind old photos or anything I just don't appreciate the ones with kissing or the ones with an old couple standing in a group but they are arm in arm. Sorry if this bothers me but I can't help it.. Its a respect issue to me regardless of what others think. What the hell is happening to marriage if people are starting too think that this kind of behavior is ok? Maybe I was raised different? Maybe its because I believe when you get married this is the person you would do ANYTHING for. You want to respect them at all times and have them do the same for you. Is that so wrong?? So, some may say I am just jealous and that its not a big deal, ok I get that but regardless of jealousy or not its still mostly about the respect issue. I mean I don't even appreciate it when my husband has another female in his car alone and I don't know about it. No he does not need to call and ask for permission but it goes back to respecting your marriage. If a married man or woman are hanging out with a member of the opposite sex alone, married or not, I think its respectful to let your spouse know about it. I don't even like having the maintenance guy in our apartment without letting him know. This is just who I am. So now what to do. How do I realize that these type of people who don't have the same views as I do are always going to be around? My loving husband is slowly starting to understand where I'm coming from... hehehe he of course does not have those pictures up that the girl sent with them making out. He is much smarter than that...lol My issue here is the girls that do this. He even wrote her and asked why you would send those and she just said she thought she would send them all. Oh well... Good thing I have a GREAT MAN who is understands respect.. I just wish the females would too!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Waste of Money

Have you ever notice the millions of drum traffic cones along our nations highways when there isn’t even ANY road work going on there? I just recently started paying attention to this. I noticed while driving from North Carolina to Florida. Highway 95 in Georgia seemed to be where I noticed most of them. Now of course I don’t know just how many I passed on my drive but I’m pretty sure I am being gracious by saying a number of 10,000. I am pretty sure the number is MUCH higher than that but I did not count them on my drive… LOL Anyways… One Drum cost about 75.00 each!!! Ok so 10,000 x 75.00 is $750,000.00!!!! Just sitting there on the side of the road!!! so if we take this total (which is low for what's really on the roads) and multiply it by 50 states…. $37,500,000 OVER 37 MILLION DOLLARS!!!! Wasted!! Yes some are needed whenever there is road work but do they really need to be sitting on the road to emphasize the white line at the shoulder? We all know what the white line means.. we don’t need 100 –$75.00 cones to tell us!!! Again, I know some are needed to protect workers and help change needed traffic patterns but not all of them. If you  took a realistic number of how many cones are really  on the roads then the cost would be outrageous!!!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Murphy's Law

I believe to fully understand Murphy’s Law; you must hear a good story explaining it all. Murphy’s Law is "if anything can go wrong, it will." Most people do not believe in Murphy’s Law at all. They just think it’s all a coincidence. The story I am about to explain to you is an interesting one. For one character it is “Murphy’s Law” but for the other it is a story of survival and the will to survive.

My little brother, Anthony, lives in Daytona Beach with my mother, step dad, and 2 dogs; Doodles and Cornbread. It was originally one dog until my older brother Daniel and his fiancĂ© (Wife now) decided they could not take care of their dog Cornbread anymore. Now to give you a little bit more background on the dog situation, my grandmother and mother both got 2 dogs from the same breeder. My grandmother has one and my mother got the other, Doodles. About once a month my grandmother would come pick up Doodles for a “sleep over” at her house with his brother Dobie. These are 2 VERY spoiled dogs.

One weekend while my older brother Daniel was visiting with his fiancĂ©, they explained to my mother how they had no time to train or take care of their dog. My mother being the animal loving person she is opted to take Cornbread for 2 weeks and try to train her. After about 1 week Daniel stated they did not want Cornbread back. Of course my mother said something to the effect of “No worries, we love her here”

Now, my mother was the only person who loved cornbread being there. She was a not a well behaved dog. She was not house broken, and very skittish. My mother felt like this was a project for her since she had been watching Caesar the dog trainer on TV.

Not long after Cornbread being a new fixture in the house, Anthony noticed Doodles was staying over at our grandmothers longer and longer. One week was turning into months. Anthony, being fed up with the new dog, and the fear his dog doodles would stay gone forever, finally decided to do something about it.

One day, while everyone was gone, Anthony decided that if Cornbread “ran away”, then mom would miss having a dog around and bring Doodles back home. This seemed very logical to him at the time. Anthony called one of his friends up and they decided to go out to lunch. This was the perfect time for him to act on his plan of “operation runaway dog”. Anthony and his friend loaded themselves and Cornbread into the car. Cornbread having no clue what lie ahead. She was just excited to be going for a ride.

Anthony and his friend dropped Cornbread off in a neighborhood just over the bridge to the beachside. Anthony had planned to drive to a farther neighborhood but feared she might use the restroom in his friend’s car. They then took off leaving her all alone as they went to lunch.

Later that afternoon my mom had returned home from work and noticed right away Cornbread was gone. After searching the house everywhere, she asked Anthony if he had seen her. Anthony replied that he had let her outside to use the restroom earlier and forgot to let her back in. Mom sensed right away this was not a correct answer. Anthony, who has cerebral palsy, had never before gotten his crutches just to let any dog outside let alone Cornbread who he did not like.

A few days go by and my mother is very upset. Calling all over and making flyers. At some point she calls the humane society to see if Cornbread was there. She was not at the facility but the lady who answered the phone recalled hearing description of the dog. The worker found out there was a couple who found a dog and was looking for its owner. It turns out that a family, who lives in the neighborhood where Cornbread was left had found her. They happened to be driving down the road when they noticed her running back and forth dodging traffic.

The couple that picked Cornbread up decided to take her home and try to locate her owner. Once home with Cornbread, she was introduced to the couples 2 pet Rottweilers. After about a day of being with the other dogs, there was a disaster. One of the Dogs had attacked Cornbread and she was off to the animal hospital. Puncture wounds down her back from the larger dog’s powerful bite.

When my mother called to confirm the couple had found her dog she heard the story of Cornbreads last few days. My mother was not only distraught, but also could not afford the $2500 vet bill for Cornbreads injuries. Usually the owners would pay, but how do you ask them when they are the reason she was saved from being hit by cars.

Cornbread is now back at my mothers and healing well. The vet bill paid, even though money was tight. Now most of you may see this story as an example of Cornbreads survival, but I see it as Murphy’s Law of “what can go wrong will” for my brother. He thought all he had to do was drop her off and his problem would be over. Well, Murphy stepped in and showed him otherwise. Not only did he not get rid of the dog but he has to help pay back the vet bill, Cornbread is babied even more now due to her injuries, my family is mad at him for his decision and Doodles is still over at my grandmother’s house.

No sleep since 01/2007

So, I am becoming very used to the idea of no sleep….I don’t even know what to do any more. About once a week I am getting some sleep from about 1am to 5am so I guess I can not complain to much. What's my issues?? Why can’t I sleep?? MY HUSBAND SNORES SO DARN LOUD!!! I mean it too!! Not just a little bit here and there but like a chainsaw all night long!!! Of course it does not effect him at all so he sleeps through the night!! The nights I do get some sleep, the 1-5 shift, are nights that I get so fed up with it I sleep on the couch, like last night. I don’t want to be the wife that has her own room one day but I am SO understanding why this happens!! Yes there are things out there that say they will help but so far NOTHING has come to my rescue!! I have tried sleeping with headphones and earplugs but they don’t work at all. There are nose strips and things of that nature that does not work either. We have tried them all. I have heard (Thanks Nancy) of this mouth guards and they looks promising but then he would have to sleep with a mouth piece in every night. I of course would not mind if it works but its 70 bucks!!! What if its a total sham? Has anyone tried them?? Yes there are some nights that Elijah has gone out of town and I have thought… FINALLY SOME SLEEP.. but alas… its a catch 22!!! When he leaves for the night do to work I am up all night and can’t sleep!!! I can not sleep knowing he is not in the house with me and yet when he is here I can’t sleep because of the noise!!

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Dragon Skin VS Interceptor (The ARMY LIED?? NO WAY!?!?) Hahaha

Please Not the Hyperlinks for more information..... 

 

smile_angry Ok so… I don’t know if anyone out there has been keeping up with the Dragon skin v.s. Interceptor ballistic vest issues or not so let me catch you up before I go into my rant today… Some years back a company produced a new body armor technology called dragon skin. It is small disk interlaced like scales which in theory and their testing provided superior protection against many different rounds. Dragon Skin Wikipedia Google it on you tube if you like….



Now, the Army uses Interceptor body armor and states that the dragon skin has not passed the testing qualifications for proper wear. This makes since, if it does not pass the proper test then why would you use it for your troops fighting a war. Awesome I get this logic. SAFETY FIRST!!! But… that is not at all what is going on here… The GI Inspection found that the Army had not properly tested the INTEREPTOR body amour and passed ballistic plates that would have initially failed if properly tested!!! What you say, you mean the Army sent our troops to Iraq knowing their vest were not up to safety standards?!?!? Yes that is exactly what I mean. Not only that but they also said Dragon skin was not safe to use and banned it 2 months before they started testing it!!! The ban on Dragonskin (because they said it failed testing) in the Army started March 2006 but testing was not done until May 2006…. How did they even know it was not a good product before test had begun?? Could it be that dragon skin cost about $2,000 a unit compared to the interceptor which is around $200?? Of course this is the issue!! The government would rather save 1800.00 per vest than save the life of a solider. (this of course is my opinion since I have not tested either vest for myself) Below is taken right off of the Department of defense Inspection web site!!!! (page i is where the below is taken from…page 5 out of 66)

 

 

What We Found First article testing for Army Contract 0040 was not consistently conducted or scored in accordance with contract terms, conditions, and specifications. Consequently, we believe three of the eight ballistic insert designs that passed first article testing actually failed (ballistic insert designs M3D2S2, MH3, and MP2S2). We had concerns about another first article test (design M4D2), but insufficient test data precluded us from determining the impact of the inconsistent testing and scoring processes. As a result, the Army does not have assurance that all inserts purchased under Contract 0040 provide the level of protection required by the contract. This underscores the need for internal controls to ensure adequate oversight of the first article testing process and proper review and approval of the first article test results. The contracting officer technical representative made an unauthorized change to Contract 0040 by instructing the testing facility officials to deviate from the Contract Purchase Description without approval from the contracting officer. Because we reviewed only one contract, we can not report on the effect of the unauthorized change on other body armor contracts. The audit team conducting DoD Inspector General Project No. D2008-D000CD- 0256.000, “Research on DoD Body Armor Contracts,” will determine whether unauthorized changes were made to the body armor contracts under their review and the effect of those changes on the first article test results. DoD does not have standardized ballistic testing criteria for body armor ballistic inserts. Army and USSOCOM officials developed separate ballistic testing criteria for body armor. The criteria differed significantly, even when testing against the same threats. Differences included the number of plates tested (sample size), the shot pattern, the environmental conditions, the type of tests, and the pass/fail guidelines. As a result, DoD does not have assurance that its body armor provides a standard level of protection.

Ok, so the Army’s response was

 

Recommendation A.2.c. was added to the final report. Officials from the Army and DOT&E disagreed with our finding that ballistic insert designs M3D2S2, M4D2, and MP2S2 actually failed first article testing and that the designs should be returned. However, the Secretary of the Army agreed to order the identification and collection of the designs pending Deputy Secretary of Defense adjudication of the issue to ensure there is no question concerning body armor effectiveness

 

but yet they still recalled and changed out the plates??? If they believe 100% that they are working properly then why would you lose the money and take them back? Ahhh because rather than admit they were caught risking lives they say they have done no wrong. We all know our government is corrupt or at least not always honest.. (Duhh) we also all know that they take the LOWEST bidder not most qualified bidder on equipment. SO if they are willing to change test to pass faulty equipment and only correct the issue once they are caught….what else are our men and women of the military or everyday people using that the government knows is faulty??? Yes all the branches are using the interceptor vest right now and yes they have saved lives. Again I am not saying dragon skin is the best vest. The Army did produce test results against it…. but if they changed it for the interceptor then how do we know that it has not been changed to say dragon skin is bad??? HMMMMMMMMM one will never know but I would love to get my hands on these products to test myself smile_teeth

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Emergency Room Visit!!!

OK, so lets get started on this one……

Yesterday while sitting at the apartment office I received a text message from Elijah asking me to come home NOW… Well, once I walk through the door a see a terrifying scene in front of my eyes. Elijah is on the floor with his back leaning on the side of the couch. Blood is everywhere from the kitchen, down the hallway, and into the bathroom. Elijah’s left hand is wrapped in a blood soaked towel. Trying to stay calm and asses what is going on I confront Elijah and notice that he is going in and out of consciousness. He is not verbally responding to me and his whole body is starting to shake and his skin was cold and clammy. At this point all I know is I must keep talking to him and try to calm him from going into shock. Anyone who has been through this or has training knows that shock can be worse than the injury itself. Shock alone can lead to death!! Well, once I realize that I can not get Elijah to answer me or get him to a car on my own so I of course call 911.  The fire truck shows up in just a few minutes.. (thank goodness we are not even a mile away) Once on scene the firemen look at Elijah’s cut in his hand and said he probably needed stitches and they wrap it up for him. At this point Elijah is still tired but no more are we in fear of shock. The firemen help me get Elijah in the car so I can take him to the ER. They suggested that I take him so we would not have to pay for the ambulance ride… (not thinking that its free for us we agreed) Elijah was in SO much pain from this injury. Come to find out, he cut himself using a paring knife trying to get rice crispy treats out of the pan. (guess I should of remembered to grease or butter the pan first) I believe he had the knife in he right hand trying to dig under the treat with his left hand on the treat itself. As the knife slipped through the treat it went straight into his hand between the pointer finger and thumb. OUCH!!!!!

So, Off we go to the on base hospital called Womack. Once we arrive in the ER it looks like a mad house. I swear it was something straight out of the movies. Small waiting room, full to the rim of people and others standing along the walls. A sign on the wall says please take a number and wait to be called for Triage.We take a number and go sit down. Our number is 89 and they are on number 70. This number is JUST FOR TRIAGE!! Not even to be seen by the doctor!! Anyway, we sat there for and hour and they were only on number 72! We found out from other guy there that Cape fear hospital off base takes TriCare insurance.  We decide to leave and head that way. Once we got there we checked in and sat down. within 45 minutes we were at the triage nurse. Awesome I was thinking to myself. The nurse looked at his hand and felt it probably did not need stitches. We go and sit down anyway. After about 30 more minutes we hear others saying they had been there since 7, 10, and 11, am!!! It was 845pm!! We go back to the triage nurse and have her look again. She still feels it does not need stitches. She said that the way it is already starting to heal is great and its not only stopped bleeding but very clean. We both decide that it was time to go since it was going to be a 12 hour wait and the doc may not even give him stitches. We get home and I start the wonderful task of cleaning up all the blood.

So all in all he is doing well this morning. He slept on the couch so not to roll over on his hand, he moves a lot in the bed. This morning the cut is still very deep looking but seems to be healing well. I am attaching a photo of the cut and the knife he cut himself with. You can see on the knife how deep it went in by the stain left behind…..Also the stains on the white kitchen rug from the blood.. I will be bleaching it today…. Stop reading here if you don’t want to see…


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Monday, February 23, 2009

Vegetarian/ Vegan Food And Pets

Disclaimer: This is not about anyone, not directed to any individual, I was just reading something online about PETA and wrote my thoughts :)

OK, here is another rant for you… I have NOTHING wrong with Vegan/vegetarian food.. its actually pretty great but why if most vegetarian/vegans do not eat meat do they make meatless burgers, hotdogs, sausage, and all the other meat look alike products?  They even try to make it taste the same. So in essence you know meat taste good and you want to eat it but you feel you have an moral obligation not to… If you don’t eat meat because you believe it is cruel to animals then why would you want to eat something that even resembles meat? If perception is reality then you wouldn’t wear a fake fur jacket out because others might think its real and you don’t want to give off that image right? Then why order a meatless burger in the restaurant where others can’t tell its not meat? Yes, you could say now that it does not matter what others think as long as you do what you feel is right.. WELL.. this I agree with but if that is the case then stop judging others for eating meat!! Get it? And while we are on this explain pets to me…

Its cruel to eat animals but ok to keep them as pets? Your house is not their natural habitat. Lets talk about dogs, If your dog runs away I’m sure you go looking for it right? Well, now you have imprisoned it because it chose to leave you. Is this ok in your eyes? How can you justify keeping an animal imprisoned in your home just because you take it out to exercise and feed it dog food, which is not its natural food? Even inmates are given exercise and food in prison.

Yes I eat meat and yes I have a dog, This blog  is addressed to the hypocrites that justify their beliefs to fit their needs or desires. If you are going to believe in the rights of animals then go with it fully and set yours free and stop eating food that is made to look at taste like them, don’t pick and chose what beliefs are ok to believe in as long as they don’t interfere with you. Yes I am sure your dog is happy at your house, I know mine is, but even I, a meat eater, can’t deny that the Kimura (my dog) would be happier living and running free in the woods.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Bilingual Church!?!?!

So today was a great day at church like always and then something strange happened. Ok for a bit of insight, I go to a very large church. It has 3 services and is a very large building. They have even started a Spanish service for the large number of Spanish speaking families that are going now. I think this is an AWESOME idea.
Ok back on today at church, So, I am singing worship songs to God. They project the lyrics on the large screens in the front so all can sing along if they want to. well, all of a sudden, with eyes closed and worshiping, I got very confused by the chorus of the song we were singing. I could not believe I had gotten so caught up in worship that I did not know they changed songs. Well they didn’t, They had started singing the song in Spanish in the middle of the song, this was no accident or anything like that. This was a song we normally song on Sundays and they just decided to sing part of it in a different language. I understand that Gods word is Gods word in ALL languages but is it wrong of me to not appreciate the Spanish part of the song? I mean am I being closed minded by thinking that If I wanted to sing this song in Spanish then I would of gone to the Spanish Church service. Maybe its wrong of me to feel this way. Maybe there was someone in Church today who heard that one part in Spanish and it really spoke to them. I just did not like it I guess. I just hate to sound like a bigot or something but I feel if someone lives in ANY country they should speak their language. I don’t think there is an issue with the separate service because since I can’t speak Spanish I wont be going but also why take part of my worship and change it to a language I do not understand?
You tell me… Am I wrong for being taken back by this?