How am I doing??

A few people have asked how I am these days… well these next 2 songs about sum it up in words I couldn’t…. they are in order of how I have been doing.. of course the last is … well my last 6 months or so!!! Not that I wont ever return to the “person”in the first song but I think its the realization of the second and first combined that make the difference. It may mean NOTHING to you but it means the WORLD to me :)

 

Barlow Girl

On My Own lyrics

I can't believe that I"m here in this place again
How did I manage to mess up one more time?
This pattern seems to be the story of my life
Should have learned this lesson by the thousandth time
'Cause I promise myself I wouldn't fall
But here I've fallen
I guess I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You
Oh God You have to save me
You're my last and only hope
All my right answers fail me
I can't seem to make it on my own
I always thought that I would be strong enough
What made all of them fall couldn't take me down
Yeah, did I think that I was above it all
I have learned that pride comes before the fall
I can't promise that I won't fall
'Cause here I've fallen
I know I'm not as strong as I thought
All I can do is cry to You

 

 

 

Harder Than The First Time lyrics
I walked with you
Just like we've done for so long
You seem so near
But even that's become so common It's not just You, just been together so long
That I thought I knew everything about You
But today I saw
Did You open up my eyes?
'Cause I feel like I've just seen You for the first time
I didn't see You
But God I want to
You've come alive
And I think I've fallen harder than the first time
Was I so blind?
How did I not see You?
Yet in that time You never left my side
So far all my life I will live to know You
So here I am, I'll take Your hand
I see Your face
I feel You close
The love You've always shown me
Won't miss it now can't waste a day
Jesus I'm Yours completely